Written Lyrics: Eternal Bless (Copyrighted) 1

ETERNAL BLESS

You gave me the blessings of friendship.
When you talk to me that rainy day
You gave me the courage
To be a better person

You gave me a whole new life
When you became my best friend
But I didn't cherish you
I treated you for granted and cast you aside

I became so lonely and you felt the same
You, being so forgiving gave me a chance
To be your friend once again
Now, I understand the eternal blessings

Blessings of friendship~~
Blessings of friendship~~~

From then on,
we cherish our moments
study, eat, play together as we have
the blessings of friendship
the eternal bless ~

20 April 2019

YEAR 2-0-1-9... ...

Even though I am going to be 22 years old in 4 more months, I do not feel any different. How do people constantly grow stronger and smarter each and every day of their lives? Its amazing.

I was wondering if I should start writing a light novel for fun. but I am not have what it takes to do so. Recently, I have been feeling depressed and happy and depressed again...

There is nothing much to write really... as I did not do anything special. No new Instagram posts, I seem to be doing nothing beneficial lately.

Signing out 1.20 pm, 20 April 2019

Joined SIT Hospitality Business with +/- feelings

Apparently, I managed to do well for the 2 interviews for the selection during the SIT admission process this year. At first, I was really very excited about this. Of course, even now, I am happy to given the opportunity to study at SIT as I would not need to feel inferior or ashamed when I see my relatives next year during Chinese New Year. I got into SIT Hospitality Business (HB) this year and it seems that there was about 1500 applications and the selection process was 1 out of 10 applications.

Therefore, after completing the management trainee program at my hotel, I received a certificate to recognize that I have graduated from that program. After resigning in August 2018, I started my new and final student life by going for the Credit Exemption Briefing, SIT Orientation Camp, HB Bonding Day, Day Zero and HeyBeach to gain new friends. I honestly thought that it was my last chance to make an everlasting friendship with someone.

I guess, my greatest weakness right now would be creating lasting friendships. Is it because of my personality? Or my face? What is wrong with me that others hate? Is it because I love anime and am not afraid to show my interests? Is it because I cannot make good small talk? Or I am a boring person? Is it because I do not shop for clothes, makeup or have an interest in visiting cafes? What should I do? Standing at 21 years old now, I am clueless and hopeless in regards to relationships whether is it family, friends, colleagues, superiors, school professors... ...

I do not know what am I living for. I do not have a particular dream that I want to pursue nor do I want to pursue love. I always taught I was a very special girl, as I have never met anyone with the same personality and thinking as mine. However, I guess deep down, I am just a normal girl with family issues, relationship issues and money issues. I would like to say that I am suffering in my heart now but if I were to say it out, it seems like a trivial issue compared to those who are more unfortunate than me. Therefore, I would not say I am an unfortunate person but someone who needs to continue to be independent and just brave through all the obstacles as life goes on. 

My current motto for 2018 is to

Live My Life To The Fullest

I believe in moving forward and learning from my past mistakes. I will continue to persevere to fulfill my responsibilities. Even if there is no one next to me that my heart is willing to pour my dishearten feelings, do not stop...

Apart from that, when my professor asked what superpower I would have, I chose the "Healing" power and she told me no one has told her yet. If possible, I would like to heal the injured people regardless whether it is physical (a real disease) or mental (depression) and myself as well. I hope that we can live on Earth happily. I may not be a very ambitious person but neither am I someone who would just laze around in the house for long periods of time. 

Signing off for the first time in 2018

Praying for my career to have a high salary as I believe without money, nothing can be solved. But with money, anything is possible.

WOW! End of Year 2017 (1st Post for the year)

I would like to summarize my one year of activities for 2017. Started off in January, where I started to send resumes, wrote essays for university applications (did not make the cut) and had fun in a long time, just relaxing without the need to go to school, practice for concerts, study for exams and go for project meetings. 

Moving on till the month of May / June, I enjoyed this 6 months period of fun and stress-free lifestyle. However, l I felt the pressure from my parents to look for a job if I could not make it to university (as I was not receiving any replies from my applications that I sent to all five local universities in Singapore. I guess, my results was terrible and below average compared to my peers). 

Finally, I found a Full-Time Job that was close to my ideal expectations. An estimate salary of $1,400 (without CPF contribution), a job in the Tourism / Hospitality industry, to be able to grow and learn from many experiences and mistakes and lastly, to love what I do. Therefore, this leads me to the job position of a Management Trainee at an infamous Hotel Group across many countries. I get to experience many different roles through a 1-year Programme; which includes the Front Office Department that involves the Reception, Concierge, Housekeeping, Premier Lounge (handle VIPs) and also includes the Food & Beverage Department that involves (Restaurant, Banquet, Kitchen). After finishing this Programme, my company's HR department would have a discussion with me regarding the job scope and department that I would like to take in the future. 

I am looking forward to having the opportunity to continue to work with them as well as enter SIT Hospitality Business course through the normal admission and SkillsFuture Earn and Learn Programme where students can study and work at the same time for a stipulated time period (6 months in/out of study and work OR 3 days work / 2 days study OR 4 days work / 1 day study). Hopefully, they would at least grant me an interview so that I can at least show my strengths for once...(however, I am very bad and nervous for interview, and usually do better during practical situations). 

Now, I am reaching the 6-month period of the Programme, and would need to write a 2-page report and prepare a presentation for the higher-ups to show what I have learnt, my challenges and highlights, etc.

Wish me Good Luck, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year Everyone!!! 

A New Start

After having a more relaxed Polytechnic Year 3 life in 2016, with an AWESOME Retail management Semester 1 and a boring Human Resource management Semester 2, I did not achieve much for Year 2016 because my purpose for this year was to let go of all my burdens, CCAs, activities and just enjoy my life. However, now as the year is coming to an end, there was nothing much to think about. 

However, I feel that my life is changing, how I actually perceive things and interpret stuff is changing. Of course, changing for the better. This is because I met a certain friend on LinkedIn and she brought me to this company called Elusyf Global. Being able to grow my skill sets, grow my network, earn some income on a part time basis really boosts my confidence for a better future. To be able to start my own business, at my own accord, with no overheads and capital except for a small amount to buy their products and services. For now, I think its totally worth it as the money can always be earned back somehow or another but meeting all these wonderful professional consultants, speakers and entrepreneurs is a once in a lifetime situation. That's because we are only young once!

My motto is 

"To be able to gain experience at the right time and with the right people! For We Only Live Once!!!"

I think the best part of this business is being able to meet all these kind-hearted people, willing to share their experiences with others unconditionally. Its amazing to see that their product is actually really good with all the real-life testimonials and excellent quality ingredients. They also have excellent trainers to teach youngsters how to sell their products. Its really a sure-earn money business. In addition, its one of the best ways I seen so far that we can actually move away from the traditional method of climbing up the ladder slowly from studying in university to working hard to get a job and slowly get a promotion and a bonus. Instead, it is a conventional method of earning money from young. Work harder at a young age, spend time to work even during the holidays so that we can work less when we are old. 

Hopefully, I will be able to adapt quickly to the new environment, earn back my money and grow my communication and interpersonal skills. This also factors in my ability to express myself better using words and to know my strengths and weaknesses better. As I am aiming to pass the SIT Interview in 2017 because I really feel that this course that I have chosen is exactly the kind of dream job that I want to do in the future. This would be my new year resolution for 2017 and a NEW START as a new entrepreneur.

Worst Semester finally comes with a bang!

I have to admit, studying in Singapore Polytechnic for 2 and a half years has been quite enjoyable. I realised that when I am in a particular group, with efficient and fun group mates, I become happier, more efficient and motivated to do more for the lecturer in that module. With that, I would eventually become less nervous during presentations and score even better. This makes my life as a diploma student more interesting and less tiring with all the projects and examinations. 

And in Year 3 Semester 1, I decided to take the Retail Management specialisation to learn more about the Retail Industry in Singapore and globally. I really loved these modules and the lecturers as well. They were so chirpy and helpful, guiding the class with dedication and professionalism. The projects were awesome and interesting, adding some creativity skills as well. I gained a lot of general knowledge in the Retail sector. So to end off that semester, I felt that it was the best semester in Singapore Polytechnic. 

Unfortunately, my happiness did not last long. I took the Human Resource Management specialisation for Year 3 Semester 2 with two of my friends. I was really really excited to go back to school after that 8 week holiday. However, I met this lecturer. I created a dispute with my group as my two friends did not want me to leave the group. The three of us felt awkward in another group and felt that there was no chemistry in our groups. I told her that I would not be able to produce 100% of my best work for efficiency and productivity of the project because I really wanted to enjoy this module and strive to do even better than expectations. 

So I proposed a solution to help me and one of my friends. But to no avail as the lecturer decided to act like a mother and told us that in the real world, there is no such thing as being awkward. But what she does not understand is that we are now in school and not in the real world. We should have a choice on whether we want to group with someone or not. If this was reality and I met this situation, I would have quit the job and moved on to a much better working environment that would appreciate my skills and experiences more. Yet, the ironic part of this story is that the two friends that forced me in this awkward situation, were as quiet as mouse when the lecturer confronted us. That made me more angry and frustrated at them than at the lecturer.

Well, I know the lecturer is just trying to tell us that even if we have to work with the most difficult person, we have to do it for survival. In my case, for my grades. So I predict that this semester would be the worst semester in my entire Polytechnic life. Left 91 days more before graduation date~~ Hang in there, and I know I will get past this. But seriously, I was really wanting an AWESOME HR semester... ... 

" When all hope is lost, it leaves the room with darkness. There was suppose to be salvation, leaving a trail of light. But it was pitch black, no one to hear the screams of my mind and soul " 

- quoted from AL

P.s. She does not even know LKY is Singapore's Prime Minister because she thinks he is the President. Ironic part? She teaches global stuff on the world but she does not even know our country's politics where she is working at right now. How am I suppose to respect and agree that she has the qualifications to be a lecturer. Well, let nature take its course and what awaits me in the next 17 / 18 weeks is torture and tons of awkwardness.

Past, Present, Future

There is nothing to do
Every day and night
Too difficult to find a job
During the school holidays

Even though there is so much time
there is nothing fun for me to do

Reminiscing the past
Thinking about the wonderful moments
That let me see the light
Thinking about those painful memories
That brought me darkness and solitude

Living in the present
Doing what I think is right
Feeling a sense of accomplishment
Yet, a bit of regret?

Looking forward to the future
Or maybe not?
Hoping to feel a sense of achievement
Where my dreams are coming true

These might be my own story
But wait, it might be yours too~~