University feelings (please let me get accepted next year)

In one more year. I will be in University. Hopefully, SIT university's Business school.. I hope I can pass the 3 rounds of interview and I heard from the SIT lecturer that came to SP Open House that they only accept about 100++ applicants for my desired degree course. This is because it is a new course and I think I will be the 2nd / 3rd Batch for that course if they accept me.

I'm really excited to go for Hospitality Business Degree Course next year if I get accepted. As it does not only teach Business but also for people who wants to enter the Hospitality sector!! (Which is my dream). My goal was to enter this course as I knew it is definitely the right course for me. I love customer service, I had a wish once that I want to give everyone I serve the best customer service I could give and show the world that excellent customer service definitely exists in Singapore as well. Why you may ask? As I have seen too many bad customer service in Singapore and most of them comes from youngsters like my age...

Of course, I am interested in Hotel Management or maybe even integrated resorts management. I find this interesting.

To find out my interests, I decided to start working after O Levels during the holidays to experience work and the different types of jobs in Singapore. I wanted to know what kind of jobs I was interested in. So I started as a Retail associate at Robinson's where I learnt cashiering, folding and ironing clothes and a bit on gift wrapping as well, then to a office job at Edufarm Learning Centre where I learnt binding, printing and sending of books to other places. Moving on, I worked at Universal Studio Singapore (USS) as a waitress then to Isetan Scott's for stock taking, and lastly my 6 week internship at Borneo Motors which was another desk-bound job.

Of course, I did this to see the difference between the irregular timings of Retailing (sometimes I stayed until 11pm and reached home at 12+, midnight) and the regular office hours from 8am to 5pm for office jobs.

All of these experiences was fantastic. I found out that I really love jobs that I can learn new things from it and some provides me new opportunities (maybe for job advancement) and also new connections. Totally awesome..

Though at the end of the day, I totally understand the saying that studying is still better than working. 

Loneliness

For some reason, I am feeling lonelier than usual. My heart is telling me I have no real friends. No real friends to confide to, who really understands me, who wants to be my friend even when I show my real self, my weaknesses, my hobbies, my dream.

It seems to be true that when you finally have some friends, you feel a certain happiness but when that time goes by and they left, it makes the heart feel a certain loneliness. But you may say it's just going back in time and being just by yourself again but in fact, that loneliness lingers...deep within that fragile heartbeat.

Nonetheless, it is time to move on even if I have to do so alone with nobody by my side. As the Earth still moves and time will not wait. It's just a matter of time before I find new friends.

Even though it might not last but I wont forget the happy memories that I had before cos that is what makes me.. me.

Poetry / Song Writing - AL

Walking up that tiny, dark road
Just wanna go home
Don't let me go
Bring me back to where I belong
For this is home

Have you ever thought about what lies beyond?
To the future that we all belong
Its hard to say what we do not know
But believing in the path we take
Is the way to go

Don't stop me now
Don't block my path
Even if its shady and dark
I will walk on
To see the tiniest light at the end of the road

Presevere and see the light
For this is the start of a new beginning
A new path, A new way of living
It brings us hope for the future
Even if it might bring misery at the end
of the path

-AL