Chinese New Year Celebration!!!!!!!!!!

I did not get a lot of hong bao/red packets this year as I did not visit my mum's three sisters because my mum does not want to see them.But I ate Yu sheng on 21 Feb 2010.

RAINY DAY!!!!!

It was a rainy day. I had my second math test and first english test on 5th Feb 2010. It was not so hard. My english test was to write a essay of " A Memorable Birthday!", I wrote 4 pages long and had wrote 667 words. I had broken my previous record of 422 words. I did not wirte a real or good story though. The math test was fine but I think I am going to fail my math test as I found out that I had a lot of careless mistakes. "SHIT!" I said when I knew that I had made Serious careless mistakes from easy questions.

FEEL LIKE...................

I feel like commiting suicide but have no courage. I dont know why I feel that way. I did all my homework is for my mum's sake but today when I show her my chinese jounal book which had 9/10. She was angry for no reason and just sign so big and untidy. I had to correction tape it away as it is so ugly!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~ I want TO BE A BAD GIRL BY TALKING BAD AT THE TEACHER, NOT HANDING UP THE HOMEWORK AND OTHER BAD STUFF EXCEPT FOR ILLEGAL STUFF. BUT I dont have the courage and teachers will scold me and my parents will scold and beat me. I HAVE NO COURAGE AND CONFIDENCE AND I FEEL SO USELESS.

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CLASS TESTS!!!!!!!!

There are so many class tests for so many subjects coming up this week and next week!!!!!!! :( SO STRESSFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! For every homework or assignment I do, the marks will be added in the CA1 Marks!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH........ The class tests marks will also be added into the CA1 marks. My mum thinks that I lack in confidence........ do I? I think I do. I wish that I can do well in all my subjects and at least get a B3 for all. I want to be a good student and I dont want to fail any of my subjects. I listen to my teacher teach and hand in my homework on time.

I pray that FATHER, u will help me in my studies although I dont study so hard but please let me get a B3 for all my subjects at least. I want to do my parents proud so I pray in the name of CHRIST JESUS. Amon.